Then one of the crew tried it. And I was petrified all over again, but he made it, too. Then the guy in the band went a second time. By now, I was thoroughly freaked out. But he made it again, and, thankfully, there were no more ledge walks. I made a beeline for the drinks table. Courtney eventually forced her way into the bathroom and saw Kurt turning blue. He claimed it would be boring, but then he said everything about his life was boring. The long, concrete-floored hallway leading to their room was lined on one side with cremation urns, which were manufactured in another area on the floor.
It was late when we arrived, and the entire building was silent. The room was about six hundred square feet, with windows that looked out onto other industrial loft buildings. A small riser for the drum set was as fancy as they got. There was a modest P. They had no soundproofing, no sound person, no special lights, no recording equipment, no well-stocked bar. A few mismatched old chairs were strewn around the room, some concert posters hung on the wall, and there was a small fridge.
They fussed with the P. They played sections of songs, starting and stopping until Kurt felt that things were right. I suppose this was what Kurt thought was the boring part, but it was illuminating to see how much he controlled things, how exacting he was with music that appeared so rough-hewn. It was difficult to hear some of the flaws Kurt wanted to correct, but when the band fixed them it was obvious that everything had snapped into place.
I was a relatively steady person, a little older, and drug-free. She figured that I would be good company for Kurt on the road, maybe help keep him on the straight and narrow—if only by example. Sometimes a cloud gathered over the touring party. But everyone in the band felt some sort of tension: even if they tried to make light of it, Kurt, the bassist Krist Novoselic, and the drummer Dave Grohl felt the enormous pressure of being a world-famous rock group and resented the invasive journalism that comes with it.
There were tensions within the band, too. The thing was, Dave was staying in the room right next door. I was sure that Dave heard the whole thing.
He told his biographer, Paul Brannigan, that on a flight from Seattle to Los Angeles he had overheard Kurt bad-mouthing his drumming two rows back. Once they landed, Dave told their trusty Scottish tour manager, Alex MacLeod, that he was quitting the band after the last scheduled show.
MacLeod talked him out of it. After we reached Dallas, Kurt called my room and asked whether I wanted to walk around downtown with him, the kindly Pat Smear an early L.
We rolled out with Kurt pushing Frances in her stroller, making her laugh with a ridiculous assortment of rude noises. The emptiness of downtown Dallas on a weekday afternoon was baffling to me, a provincial New Yorker, but great for Kurt, who could stroll around without being hassled by fans.
Walking down a wide boulevard, we found ourselves at the edge of a big open space. An enormous flock of grackles circled above, forming an undulating disk so vast and dense that the sunlight filtering through looked gray. It felt apocalyptic. Except for the occasional car, there was not another human being in sight. It dawned on me that this was Dealey Plaza, the site of the John F. Kennedy assassination. Eventually, Frances needed baby supplies, so Kurt rolled off with her to a drugstore.
That was the last time I saw Kurt Cobain. On or about April 5, , Kurt went up to an attic over his garage, took a lot of heroin, and then killed himself with a shotgun.
He left a note. The quality of empathy was very important to Kurt; he spoke of it often. Which might come as a surprise, given all the wanton vandalism and assorted other mischief he committed as a teen and indeed throughout his all-too-brief adult life, not to mention his avowed disdain for so many of the people around him.
How much empathy did he have when he hit a man on the head with his guitar during a show in Dallas, in ? But maybe, as Kurt claimed, opiates really did still his misanthropic impulses and help him experience empathy, or something resembling it. Maybe his outspokenness about empathy was actually a passive-aggressive plea for people to have empathy for him. At any rate, Kurt avowedly cherished the ability to imagine what other people are feeling, right down to the last moments of his life.
His name was in the smallest lettering on the whole page. Mason describes what happens almost every time someone finds out that he used to work with the group, whose singer, Ian Curtis, hanged himself, in He was a nice guy, got into a strange situation, and the only way he could think about [it] at that time was to kill himself.
Sorry, no secrets. People often ask me why Kurt killed himself. Actually, what frequently happens is, they wind up telling me why he killed himself. They have their opinions, despite never having met him, and dismiss my firsthand observations of Kurt as incompatible with what they already believe.
He also had a long family history of suicide. Somehow she survived and lived to be ninety-four. He survived but died later, after purposely reopening the wounds in a psychiatric hospital. John apparently reached in his pocket for a cigarette and accidentally knocked his pistol out of its holster. The gun dropped to the floor and discharged, killing him.
In , when Kurt was twelve, Burle killed himself with a gun. Five years later, Kenneth did. All I knew was that I had the distinct feeling that Kurt would not live a long life. But what, if anything, could I do about it? Was it even my place to get involved? A couple of times, I did get involved. One evening, in , I got a panic-stricken call from Courtney, who told me that Kurt had locked himself in a room in their house.
He was distraught, she said, and had a gun and was threatening to use it on himself. She was terrified. So was I. I asked if I could speak with Kurt, but there was no way to get the phone to him. I could hear him yelling in the background. I told her to call the police and to keep me posted. I relayed what was happening and said that such a volatile person, who did drugs and had a small child, absolutely should not have guns. When Kurt started spiralling down, I remembered a visit to his hotel room while he was on tour in New Orleans.
I asked Townshend whether he might have a word with Kurt about beating heroin and dealing with the slings and arrows of fame. I had chosen this year to give booze another gentle try after 11 years. Twenty-seven years later, I still ask myself that question. He did not do anything because he was away from Kurt and the issue long enough to clear his head and gather reasonable thoughts instead of crazy, extreme ones that put Kurt in danger.
He would bully Kurt badly with no remorse or anything to stop him from doing it. No offense, but i think you're going into this a little too much Though Karofsky only took Kurt's bullying to such a personal level because he was so afraid Kurt would tell someone he kissed him.
Karofsky likely wouldn't have bullied him so much because the only reason he did was because he was out, brave and proud of who he is. He would of just remained a normal bully had the glee club never happened. I do agree with the other parts though, if you look at the beginning of the series before the glee club, Kurt not in much of a position to consider suicide.
He was just a very sassy, flamboyant guy who got bullied a fair bit. Also something we have to remember is that, this is Glee on a happy, cheery christmas episode. I really doubt the writers would put something so drastic in the script. I don't think it will focus mostly on Kurt, It would only take 20 seconds for Figgins to announce over the speaker that Kurt is dead, Karofsky already bullied Kurt before, I think the way Kurt acted in season one the sassyiness, and supeiriority was an act to protect himself, since it's only 10 minutes the rest of the time can happy Christmassy time we all pretend Christmas always is, and the writers love drama in Glee.
Just look at Karofsky's suicide and Quinn's accident. Those aren't drastic? Explore Wikis Community Central. Register Don't have an account? Glee Wiki Explore. I had a feeling that something real bad had happened. On the morning of April 8, an electrician found year-old Cobain dead of an apparent suicide in a greenhouse above the garage of his Seattle home. The magazine also reported that he was identifiable only by his fingerprints.
By all accounts, he had already been in a downward spiral for years before he died, battling depression and chronic drug addiction. Kurt Cobain crowd surfing at a Nirvana concert in Germany. He was in full denial. It was very chaotic. And they were in fear for his life. It was a crisis. During the meeting, Love reportedly threatened to leave Cobain , with whom she shared daughter Frances Bean , and his band also issued an ultimatum of breaking up the band, should he not agree to seek treatment at a rehabilitation facility.
Several days later, Cobain would do just that, but first, he paid a visit to pal Dylan Carlson, who also participated in the aforementioned intervention, at his Seattle home on March
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